beautiful life

If the kingdom of God were in the details of my life I would no longer feel so bound up by them. It is a funny thing, because I feel in bondage to the details of life and yet don’t want to give up control. I want to see God as a ruler over the cares of my life. I know God has power I just try to micromanage. I think in placing myself in the worrisome details I see them as larger sometimes than the Kingdom in which I need to live. Jason preached this morning and it was all about celebration. I realized I don’t know how to really celebrate. I am so bound up in the stupid never ending details that I can never just stop and enjoy things. It is as if I believe that I am the juggler and if I stop all the balls will drop and something terrible will happen. How narcissistic is that? I wonder If God is waiting for me to figure out that He has my back. There will always be deadlines and details, there will only be one today. I need to slow down; and at a risk of sounding like an extreme cliché, I need to stop and smell the roses. God has given me a beautiful life I need to enjoy it.