Christian perfection???

I have had a really hard time this quarter getting teachers for the weekend services. Just when I think I have enough someone drops out or is disqualified because of background checks or personal issues. The disqualification is what I need to talk about. I cannot explain how difficult it is to tell someone they are not able to teach because of life issues. I see these people working hard to change their lives and wanting to serve. They may even want to teach their own child's class. I find something in their recent past or they share an emotional issue and I make the decision that they simply can't teach. Don't get me wrong some of the things I find out definitely take them out of the running. Life choices before we meet the Lord never disqualify us from heaven but can disqualify us from certain ministries in the church. I stand on an incredibly narrow line in knowing that serving can give us a reason to be stronger. Serving can grow us up and bring us to a point of maturity. When we feel used and know that we are something important to God's plan many times we step up and do the right thing. We find our lives do have a purpose and what we do matters. We come to an understanding that the whole world does not revolve around us. I know there are other ways to serve and I always give those options as I deliver the blow. It still feels to me that I am saying they are not good enough to work in the kingdom. I imagine the thoughts in their minds saying "if I am not good enough to work then I am not good enough for HIM." I speak this from experience. When I was a young teen my mother was not able to be a table leader in a Christian woman's group she belonged to because she had once been divorced. Never mind that it was years before, never mind that he was a womanizer, an alcoholic, and abusive. She was disqualified, and dismissed as having nothing to say to women, and worse yet not being a "good example". My mom simply worked with the children (I guess that was o.k.) and never seemed to be angry. I on the other hand felt that my mom and the women she would have served had something stolen from them all in the name of Christian perfection. A facade acted out and fiercely protected in churches all across our country. As I lead this thing it is hard to stand in the balance of serving the kids I am called to protect, and assisting the growing process of those who feel called to serve them. Pray for me that I don't fall on either side of this tightrope I walk!